The Continued Search for Inner Truth

Televisions glow in the fake midnight moonlight,
No one turns them off
Rains shoots down from a bleak unforgiving sky, unconcerned with the mud below
The voice on the radio has since grown dim and died
Gray snow falls on shuttered windows
Cracks of sunlight fight to be born, but no rays break through the clouds of nuclear winter
The world fades into darkness
The air thins and the penguins drown
The polar bears cannot find their way home

Delusional Prose

Something's missing here. I'm not sure what exactly. But something's missing.

There's a bit of an emptiness inside, a nothing that's starting to take it's toll on me. Maybe I need a change of locale. Or better yet, i'd love to have that procedure Jim Carrey goes through in Eternal Sunshine that erases memories that cause him anguish... That'd be nice - selective memory deletion. If I didn't dwell so much, I'd be a much more productive person - happier too. But ya know; there's something in my brain that's just triggered to dwell on loss - mull it over untill it's been fully mulled. My brain doesn't stop there though - even after the loss has been fully mulled - this old brain keeps mulling and dwelling over the loss. It's like grinding axel against pavement. The tire's burned away and I'm just grinding it out, trying not to notice the insanely bumpy ride.

I try and block out the bumps and skids and horrific screeching noise in my ears, but it won't go away on it's own. Left with nothing but myself, I remain dissatisfied. What's so wrong with loving external stimuli. What's so wrong with loving something more than you love yourself? I don't know. So I mull this over for a while and come to the conclussion that whatever conclussion I come to; I'll still be stuck with the loss, not feeling any better about it.

Conclusion: Ignorance is bliss?

Shall I continue to ignore the loss? Shall I pretend it doesn't exist, like you do with the proverbial woman who 'done you wrong?'

Can ignorance lead to enlightenment? If I block something out for so long, supress the emotions that these evil thoughts stir up, tell myself over and over again that the problem doesn't exist, will I eventually convince myself it's true? The problem... the loss will always be there, but if I tell myself it doesn't exist enough times, perhaps, in my head, that will make it so. Perhaps delusion is the key to salvation. After all, one man's delusion could most certainly be another man's truth.

So, I'll continue my search for inner truth, with a few delusions along the way. For the moment, I'll delude myself in to thinking that everything is gonna be alright.

Been such a long time...

It's been over a month, so i decided I'd throw up some videos that you can easily get by searching on Youtube, but hopefully you'll com here and pad my site hit count.

Here's me singing The Vagabond at the Joe Iconis Rock and Roll Jamboree at Joe's Pub on July 17th. Enjoy.



A week after the Jamboree I sang for my friend Eric March (who I've been performing with since we were both 11) at the Laurie Beechman Theatre at his show entitled "Eric March presents: Eric and Friends present: 9 New Songs 3 Old Songs and One Cover." It was hilarious. Here are a couple of clips.





See ya'll soon - Oh! I'm in a show on September 6th as part of "Effable Arts" 20-Something 20-Somethings - original songs - lots of attractive damaged people - it's in Manhattan so save the date!!! More info to follow -

keep on keepin' on

Recording "The Goodbye Song" Choir

Hello All. As some of you may know, the aggregate known as the Joe Iconis Rock and Roll Jamboree have been hard at work in the studio recording their debut album. Well, on Saturday, about 30 of the most amazing people ever gathered at Legacy studios to lay down the most glorious set of background vocals ever recorded in history. We have a real special treat for ya'll today that we hope will hold you over until the July 10th and July 17th Jamborees at Joe's Pub. Here's a sneak peak in to the process of recording "The Goodbye Song."


Also, be sure to check us out at Bryant Park at 12:30pm onJuly 9th, when the Rock and Roll Jamboree will take the stage as part of this summer's "Broadway In Bryant Park" series. We know, it's little early for you Jamboree night owl's out there, but rest assured it will rock just as hard. That's all for now - get your Jamboree tickets at www.joespub.com


More soon... we promise

All-Amateur Annapolis Marathon

Hey all, it's been a while. I don't really have anything new to offer you at this moment in time, so I'll offer you something relatively old instead.

Desperate Times Song Book Series: All-Amateur Annapolis Marathon by Gaby Alter

Here's a random video I found online of me singing a song called All-Amateur Annapolis Marathon. It was recorded at the Lincoln Center Library in May as part of John Znidarsic's Songbook Series . The song, written by Gaby Alter; the insanely talented composer of the pop-rock song cycle 29, is one of my absolute favorites to sing. Hope you enjoy it.



More to come soon...

I promise

In A Jam (Intro to Get Out of My Head)

Desperate Times Lyric Series: In A Jam (Intro to Get Out of My Head)
music/lyrics: J. Weiss

IN A JAM (INTRO GET OUT OF MY HEAD)

At times like this when it feels like there’s nothing left to lose
Your soul don’t fit, your shoes too tight – don’t feel like y’got your head screwed right – hysterical pounding voices on the brain – constantly keeping from going insane - waves of noise, bleeding silence loss of poise, can’t balance, can’t breathe, can’t even believe – you could take the lie so far as to forget who you think you are – ain’t as important as what you produce – if it comes out false; I beg you measure my noose, cause I just woke up from a seven year sleep – and I’m figuring out which truths to keep – when I get in a jam don’t know who I am, can’t think of what to say or feel – like I’m programmed wrong, cause I come on too strong - can’t stand the schmooze-workin’ grift in the throng of the big shots and fakes and wannabe theieves who cry, shout and beg for their life on their knees – Cosmic amalgamated annual trust, throws my words out and begs me to bust – but I gotta deny these doomsday feelings, senseless insanity ain’t too appealing –
I haven’t a clue as to your point of view, We’ve got points of view for sale, ale and lifting me out of financial travail
Just these magic voice just these one, two, three
Just these magic voices do I hear, and it's music to my ear

Chasing Aces The Musical! Wins 3rd Prize overall at 2009 NYC 24-Hr Film Race!

We Won!

Chasing Aces, the mini-movie musical I had a part in creating, won prizes for 2nd runner up (3rd overall), Best Original Score (Thanks to my buddy and sometime collaborator Mr. Eric March) and Best Costume Design! Cause, duh, Cowboy Hat + Magician wear + Waldo Shirt + French Beret = Best Costumes! Thanks again to everyone involved in the project. You can go to the official results from this link http://www.filmracing.com/Films/competitions/nyc2009.htm

Here it is for your viewing pleasure again: Chasing Aces

Chasing Aces

Chasing Aces: The Musical from Josh Miller on Vimeo.